Happy New YEAR its 2012.... YIPPIEEEE...

Hi Blogsville,

YAY...HURRAY, HURRAH.. WHOOP WHOOP....

DANCING/ REFLEXING...

ITS NEW YEAR...

THANK U AWESOME KING.................

I am obviously over delighted and expressive for this New Year...lol.

Why not: I have a lot to be thankful for and I am determined to make this year my own.... YES MY OWN. I am going to make sure it takes me a step closer to my destiny... YAY.

I spent mine NEW YEAR IN CHURCH.. yes it is a tradition in our family to do so, besides am so used it I can't imagine not breaking into the New YEAR in Church.. what?? Most importantly, I have a believe in JESUS and power of declaration and  I am so grateful despite all the enemies handiwork to attack my faith last year.. I will not be moved or shaken.


My Blessings for you:  I declare into this year that all that is good, great, golden, pure, blessed and clean is forever yours. You and your family will not know any sorrows, pain, regrets, failures, disheartening news or anything negative.

Every plans of the enemies concerning your life this  YEAR is frustrated in JESUS NAME.
Each month will count for a bountiful purpose and greater achievements.

You nor your household will die of any infirmities, afflictions and sicknesses.

I join my faith with as many as are believing for anything either healing, job employments, open doors, breakthroughs, deliverance, the fruit of the womb, a better and stable marriage, the bone of your bone, promotions, better relationships, fulfilling purposes etc anything at all you are believing God that is of good report and virtue, it is done in his name. I pray this year will be your year of declaration and testimonies.

Be blessed.

Yes I pray ohh... dont try me.lol.

God is love, love yourself and on others too...

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE!!!!!..

Our lives will forever be HAPPY come what may.

Can I get an AMEN........

AMEN...

I definitely sound like some sort of minister lol...

I am just a lady blessed with FAITH... THE POWER OF DECLARATION.. Never Underestimate.

INSPIRED TO GO NATURAL...... YIKES

Hello Blogsville,

I hope everyone had a fantastic thankful Christmas...

My respect to our sisters and brothers that experienced the bombing in Nigeria.

May God scatter the camp of the enemy and destroy any evil plans.. AMEN..

Pls let not stop praying for our NATION.. NIGERIA..

So, I have alot work to hand in by NEW YEAR but have been  watching youtube.. ask me what am watching ohh..

HAIR GROWTH (NATURAL HAIR)................

I am inspired to go all NATURAL.. As in cut off all the permed hair and go BALD.... YIKES...

On a serious note, I have a target for 2012, when I get that my well paid job AMEN.. Then it is official.. I will go NATURAL but not immediately.

Why: I want to enjoy this hair mehn and  take advantage of this current permed hair, in essence, I will cut it into various styles and dye it in nice colours... Well no point going for the big CHOP and not mess around with the current growth (winks). Though some will grow whilst doing it......yepa.

My hair is currently a good length but it is not as full as it used to be WHY: when I went through the break-up check my previous post on that, my HAIR ripped off. LOL. As in the stress was to much and my hair got it bad, though, I should have paid more attention to it and not carry that weave on for such a long time.  Anyways, it has grown but the volume has reduced and it just does not look right anymore, well looks okayish. Besides, I want a challenge and this seems like a perfect one, having a well paid job would definitely sponsor my mission for my hair.

Growing up in Niaj, we were encouraged to cut our hair in school all the time so am cool with cutting it. But, the last I cut my hair was in 2005, when my mum chopped hers, I got jealous and I was crying I wanted to have mine chooped too (obviously niaj blood was still strong). Now, I am sooooooo scared to have it all chopped off  more like I have an emotional attachment to it (lol). I tried taking a pic of the current length and posting it but it did not come out right so I can either wait for my sis to get back to do it for me or get someone else to help me take the pic.

I am planning on blogging about it, take the blogville family on a journey on my hair. The Good, the Bad and Ugly. This means  a picture of the current state, the styles of cuts and the final CHOP.

So, I am excited to this YAY... am not sure if it is going to happen anytime soon but it will happen at some point in my life. My current hair has to go..

I will do a post on pics of what my hair looks like.

I do believe I need to go on a massive research before I take the plunge. However, I know my hair will grow faster, fuller and healthier with this new inspiration.

I will have to keep you posted on the journey/decision.

Enjoy the rest of your holls and have a WONDERFUL, GLORIOUS, HAPPY NEW YEAR..WHOOP WHOOP..

God is love, love yourself and on others too........

ITS CHRISTMAS 2011

Hello Blogville Family,

I am using this massive opportunity to wish everyone a MERRY, JOYFUL, HAPPY CHRISTMAS..

Not a massive fan myself and NO Jesus was not born on the day nor does SANTA give any presents. Well, I do not think that matter much, fact is JESUS was born, and 25th is the day chosen to celebrate it. About Santa, there are so many stories about HIM that I do not know who to believe or what.

Regardless, Christmas derived from someone or somewhere and it is now the most celebrated time of the YEAR with the whole point of sharing and giving.

FACT: CHRISTMAS is a tradition and it has been celebrated for years and many years to come. It is part of our culture and we can chose to ignore it or celebrate it. Its an option.

FACT: Christians are largely known to celebrate CHRISTMAS as the birth of our saviour, that in itself is also a  TRADITION.

Jesus birth should be celebrated in our hearts everyday (in my opinion).

Anyways, I will not condemn Christmas or say anything negative about it.

All I will say I am not connected to CHRISTMAS as much I used to when I was a child but its what it is.

Having said that, IT IS A BEAUTIFUL  TIME OF THE YEAR with so much joy and laughter to share.

So to My BLOGVILLE FAMILY, THANK YOU FOR THE JOY, LAUGHTER, HOPE, ENCOURAGEMENT, LOVE, OPENNESS, ADVICE AND SO MUCH MORE I HAVE EXPERIENCED.

I love the  blogsville family and I pray that  all you desire this CHRISTMAS  will happen. As tradition is celebrated once again, I pray our Good Lord who I know probably has different mindset to CHRISTMAS (God ways are not our ways) will look upon us and send us wonderful gifts.

SO YEAH TO EVERYONE, I AM NOT FOR OR AGAINST CHRISTMAS but I WILL WISH US A VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS..

Congratulations to everyone that has received a wonderful Christmas presents this year i.e. new baby, new job, hubby, new house, new beginnings, 2nd chances, healing, breakthrough, forgiveness, promotions, salvation, empowerment, etc.

To those of us that are still waiting on God, staying hopeful or depending on our faith for a miracle. CONGRATULATIONS in advance. I live by faith not by sight. So there you go, I rejoice with you and your testimony that awaits you.

God is love, love yourself and on others too..

HAVE A MERRY JOLLY Cheresimse. (that was me trying to write Christmas in yoruba).lol.

Communication (IN A DIFFERENT TONE). TWO

Dear Blogsville Readers,

I hope everyone is feeling fabulous and great. I think some of us are sooo looking forward to spending this Christmas  with that special someone or perhaps enjoying that much needed holiday or maybe just spending time with the family.

As for me, I am looking forward to eating TURKEY...YAY..LOL. NOPE (actually yeah I am).

My sis is in  CHINA (YAY)  and it just me and my mum this Christmas (we are a very small family) (happy smiles). So yeah, Christmas is pretty quiet times in our house. Am looking forward to being thankful as always and appreciating all the ups and downs and grateful that we have a roof over our head and food on the table.

Back to my post,

To be honest I think I have pretty much covered all the seriousness in the previous post lol (chia it was intense). I believe communication is crucial and there are no dimension to it all, however there is a need to be honest and to discuss any issue you know your potential spouse needs to know about you.

This is crucial to avoid unnecessary issues and I know some of us might think we have nothing to ask about or discuss about. Please do not be fooled, if this person is talking deep stuff like MARRIAGE abeg be quick to ask all the relevant questions and proceed to ask God to inspire you with questions to ask.

If the person wants you as they claim, I see no reason why not to ask the question, although some might say I need time to think and get back to you. I do not mind, but I will prefer asking than to ASSUME or keep quiet.

In summary,

Questions are there for a reason, to satisfy our curiosity, desire, confusion and to provide clarity. In addition, it provides an overview for an evaluation. In essence, it gives us an opportunity to consider our options carefully.

Remember: It is better to be safe than sorry.

Note: I have not covered all the topics in the communication post, as there are so many questions you can ask your potential spouse. But I do believe we should ask the questions we are comfortable with and we are willing to share with someone we intend to be serious with.

I actually cannot think of anything else to write about now, other than I need to finish my (epic story, which I think I have jinxed by now lol).

God is love, love yourself and on others too.

Merry Christmas.

Communication (IN A DIFFERENT TONE).

Hello People,

I  hope everyone is doing awesomely great. I am sure we are all busy with Christmas duties and doing all the pressies, visiting the fam, going on all holls, rounding the semester, reviewing the plans etc. Loads to do, after all this is the last month of the year. I am going  to say this CHRISTMAS will bring all of us one or more things we desire (AMEN).

I am grateful to my KING for helping me this far  and giving me the  grace to be alive in good wealth and health. I pray his love will continue to reign in our lives. 

So am still yet to write about my epic story(but am working on well sort of). But today I want to talk about something entirely different. I am not sure if this is an encouraging post but its certainly a mind blowing one (I think).

Note: Pls be aware this post is very gory, IF YOU CANT HANDLE BRUTALITY (well at least I think that what it is), pls DO NOT READ FURTHER. IF you are  a very shy person and cringy too (This post is not for you). However, if you are daring and comfortable with people dishing their minds I guess you can read further.

WARNING: LONG POST... (Mehn I have a lot to say ohh scary).

Ok, so back to the post and what I intend on discussing. 

Communication: I find this topic very interesting and incredibly useful and I believe I do alot of this in every aspect of my life (what do you  expect I am a marketer by profession, lol. besides that I am a very curious individual). 

This aspect of communication is relating to relationships and marriage or the idea of settling down with the right partner. 

P.S I am not an expert on anything (apart from talking and my passion marketing lol). I am just sharing some interesting stuff really!!!

I believe for anything to be a success in this life, communication has to occur whether it is in organisations, families, relationships,  friendships etc. The need to be communicate and  to be HONEST is crucial to me.

So why am I talking about communication because I believe it reveals alot of things about the individual and their intentions. It is important for someone like me to know about things because I like clarity and HONESTY.  I always try to be honest by his grace because I genuinely believe it is the best policy.

This aspect of communication is however focusing on relationships. I  am not expert on it like I said earlier but I sure do know how to ask a guy questions before I step into anything. I will give you five reasons why I love communicating and asking questions.

a) It gives me  an idea of the type of person I am about to let into my life and world (i am a very dynamic being, lol, seriously I am). So I need to know the person  shares the same or similar values as me.

b) I like to understand the mindset of the person (mindset are very important to me, will do a post on it sometime). The mindset of person reveals their inner self and if your mindset is messed up boi I need to know(so we can strategise i.e. deliverance lol).

c) I enjoy building trust with people and this mostly occur through communication (trust is good although you have to be sure not everyone can be trusted). But communication can be a base to deal with anything and tackle some issues.

d) I like feeling comfortable around people (if I do not feel comfortable around you, you will know, am incredibly EXPRESSIVE). Communicating gives me that opportunity to feel comfortable around a person in this case a guy,  to be myself and just do my thing. (I am very confident, although am not easily  fazed by things, I have boundaries).

e) I like to deepen my interests (because I have a very inquisitive nature, it is really DEEP). Communication helps me to keep the interest going, if the person cant talk mehn (nothing will happen). If you can talk but on a average that is good. (I do alot of talking but am beginning to learn how to listen twice as much now, it does not come naturally to me at all but God is helping me). To think that I once used to be a quiet shy and girl in the background kinda girl... well...

So those are my key five reasons and I believe they are more. But moving on, so yeah that why I like communicating. 

Back to the main gist: I believe some relationships lack understanding because they never communicated or maybe it happened but it was too little or it lacked clarity etc.  For me before I enter into anything,  particularly relationships (that are supposed to be serious, be sure to go under some  questions radar lol). Trust me I am not shy when it comes to asking some personal questions. (If I find myself mute or scared to ask questions or unsure to ask questions, then it means am not suppose to enter into any deal with such PERSON, It will never end well what I mean that is: I WILL HAVE BUCKET FULL OF REGRETS and I will REALLY DISAPPOINT THE PERSON I have been there so I know what am saying).

However, be aware that I study the situations before I pop some questions and in some instances I tend to watch the mood or the situations itself presents some questions to ask.

Ok. so the questions I usually ask a  GUY am interested in and we are like talking deep here ohh (with the previous dude I was with, thinking he was the ONE, mehn I asked some deep questions and I needed to know what I was letting myself into).

Note: I do not plan my convo except if it is a DEBATE or bible study.

In  no particular  order, t goes like these.

I tend to ask about childhood like how he was like e.g. if he was terror, a nice dude, the one that everyone likes or hates. (I can remember my childhood and I seem to remember them the most when I am into a guy and I do not know why, well with the previous dude I remember them the most). Moving along, me talking about mine juggles  the guy's memory to talk about his too. 

It is important to know the type of child your  potential dude is mehn, it puts a lot of things into perspective when you end up married to him and find out why your children are acting in a certain nature, you wont be shell shocked  (Although, some children might have inherited from previous generations or plain weird like me lol etc.).

Having shared the ups and downs of childhood, I will talk about teen years. (Mine was spent in Nigeria/ abroad, and I spent most of my life in a boarding house so I have a lot of gist lol.... I like to particularly know the type of dude am getting with because his teenage years reveal so much about him i.e. was he a rebel, bad boy kind of person, or was he respectful, or a heartthrob etc. Anything that keeps the juice flowing mehn. 

Moving on, so we do more talking on adult years like uni stuff, college, how he was like and maturity stage etc.  This is the stage where some serious issues might begin to surface i.e. first time for everything hehehehhe...

I like talking about family like mom, dad, siblings, grand parents, uncles/aunties etc. It is important to understand the family culture and their mentality/upbringing. It says a lot about his perspectives  on life. Knowing this also helps me to think about how he has been influenced and who has played a major role. It will reveal if  he is more of  an independent/decision maker or family dependent i.e. WHAT MUMMY THINKS OR WHAT DAD THINKS must be used  because I do not have STRONG MIND OF MINE OWN(note:  I am not saying I do not use what mummy thinks myself but I have developed my character too,  to accommodate my views and the view of my mum and have a  balance). 

I also ask about illnesses, so what type of sickness is common in your family, financial status, professionals standards  expectations, ideologies,systems etc. I need to know about things like these because it gives me a clearer view whether or not we can work or MOVE ON(Although, this is  not always the case). Knowing a sickness/illness about someone family is important oh abeg I am not suffering for LOVE in the near future. As in whatever that needs binding and destroying/fasting should be happening way before marriage ohh... (Although some things might still occur,  at least you know you were aware and God is too).

I guess I also discuss future plans i.e. where do you see yourself in 3, 5 and 10 years. If you cannot give an answer for 3 years mehn I sorry ohh. At this point, you do not have to everything sussed out ( I do not, well maybe a little bit but plans change) but an idea will be good. I need to know if he HAS A PURPOSE where I can fit in and help. After all, the long-term goal of marriage is to work in  a partnership so if  I have no part to play in the future what am I doing considering marriage with such person? FOCUS IS NEEDED. (But then again, each cases are different).

The other things I talk about now  are DEEP stuff (as in this  is when things are serious and marriage is becoming a possibility at this point).

Spirituality

Why do you believe in GOD (I need to know for sanity reasons, people can chat gibberish at this stage). Although, I would have sensed his spiritual maturity as we communicate obviously and the things he says and how he says them can reveal a number of spiritual growth. (In my previous relationship, we started out on godly teachings and the bible studying so I knew he was quite grounded in the LORD well so it seemed sha). Beware people can still FAKE loving JESUS.......Jesus said it beware of (false prophets, in this case people that are clothed in sheeps' clothing and inside are ravenous wolves. Matt 7:15.(God will open our eyes AMEN).

I also need to why/how he gave his  your life to CHRIST, what convicted him, how his  life has changed since then or the changes he has noticed etc. Why he chose not do things of the past i.e. fornication, lying, stealing etc if he was before. (Pls do not tell me the bible says we should not fornicate, chai I will just think ok...... so he does not have a mind of his own. I would much prefer if he has his own views and backs it up with the bible. For instance, saying that the times he engaged with things he did at the time was because he did not consider them wrong or unlawful would be better than just saying what I want to hear, which isn't what I want to hear because I like honesty  but then again if that is the case that the "bible says" are his only reasons  then I would jam my hype ... Besides, do you know the amount of things God said and we do not acknowledge or we do and we do not know why we are doing it (hence when temptations comes instead of us to run, we will be binding and destroying and in that time,  the devil has made his way  with you and you are left confessing something that could been easily avoided by RUNNING away in the first instance). Obviously, he would ask me my views on why I obey God will (My view: my mindset is set in such a way that I live my life with accountability. Doing the things I am convicted are wrong will bring me nothing  BUT SADNESS, GUILT, condemnation, I know this because I have been there. I love my KING and I know he is proud of me and I like to keep that way by his grace). Moving along.

More conversations about JESUS, growth/life, death etc. 

Finances

I do not need him  to be a billionaire even though he might be (i am not money hungry or starved). But I need to know the areas of financial success he is  thinking of  or interested in. E.g. investments, shares etc. How he spends  and what he spends them on (i am not materialistic actually I think I might be to an extent,  but am not an extremist like everything is a MUST GET due to peer pressure or mental pressure abeg ohh).  Also I need to know if he owes any debts i.e. loans, education, colleges, etc. I need to be aware if my life savings will never be enjoyed lol. On a serious note, it makes a sense so I can understand if  he is  financially independent and he can handle budgets very well. I am budget conscious individual  but I do spend. I spend prudently and it means alot to me that savings is considered and nothing is squandered/lacks accountability.

Health

I need to know his blood group, blood type, birth stories i.e. was the delivery smooth or complicated i.e. miracle baby (I like miracle i.e. premature baby with a testimony).  I need to know he  CAN STAND and completed  in all areas lol(On a serious note, I need to know what am dealing with here)..... Also will ask about HIV/AIDS, STD, basically dig up his health manual and run me through (I am not JOKING lol).

I need to know if he is the type of individual that lets themselves go or actually work on their weight. I wont say I  am a health freak  myself but I need to know that we can work as a team in terms of keeping each other in check. I cant do overweight in any shape (I do not think its fair that one  has to run out of breath every time one does a little bit of labour  and being around watching as one pants for air like a  starved  HORSE is not a pleasing site, besides being overweight affects alot of other things too.). Although, there are instances people will put on weight its cool I guess I can deal with that but  he  has to be health conscious. Besides, if am gonna be a whale by the time am preggie I need to be motivated to shift some pounds and if he is  not health conscious how will he help me to feel SEXY again.(Note, I do not think that  being overweight means you are not sexy but in my aspect I refuse to allow my body to suffer excess weight and not wear clothes that I want to wear which complements my shape because I have to make do with anything or I have to search life and back to find something I am comfortable with. I cannot stand the stress besides, I can easily watch my weight from the beginning what with the person's help (after all marriage is a partnership).

Mental

This is very important to me in fact it is key. The mental state of the person is essential to the development of the relationship. If his  mental state lacks behind mine I will not conform/ compromise I cannot teach people how to have manners at this stage of their lives or how to treat a lady or how to talk or how to chew, or how to address situations or how to deal with a tantrums or how to understand people feelings and be considerate etc. It is too much stress for me because it means I am now your mummy abi, I will feed you, clothe you, constantly correct you and when we get married I will find myself taking care of  a BIG CHILD(CHAI). 

One's mental state determines the level of maturity one  will exhibit in situations and if I know am gonna end up doing the BULK of the work. Not fair on me, it will put a strain on life and goals and I will end up becoming bitter and resentful because I have not developed and I have not improved and  am still stagnant with my mental state deteriorating (I REFUSE TO  DO THAT to myself). I need to be sure I will grow and this will already happen from the way we communicate.  For instance in my previous relationship, he was very apologetic like he would always apologise for something that he did wrong or when  he senses am upset.  That increased my level of humility.  Also the  correction/rebuke in a loving way helped me to be more considerate and thoughtful when rebuking others. He would write in full sentences when texting (that infleunced me to stop writing in slangs). He would eat at the table with the fam(that infleunced me to eat at the table with my fam, family time is important). Little things and big things like that counts and I need to feel the changes am adopting are making me better not WORSE.

I will have to continue in the next post.

Obviously all the questions will occur over a period of time  i.e. during the course of the friendship/relationship/courtship even marriage (if you hit anyone with these question on the SPOT, THEY WILL KNOW YOU ARE MAD lol or think you need medical HELP asap)....

I apologise if its does sound like a RANT it was not my intention.

As you can tell I have alot to write about. And NO this is not a textbook or  a manual (even though, it seems like it) but it is essential to relevant ask questions better to be safe that SORRY. 

God is love, love yourself and on others too.

Feel free to leave comments whether good, bad or ugly (its your opinion and its respected well in some cases it will be challenged lol).

Feeling Better

Hi People,

I know I wrote in my last post I was very much emotional and hurting. But I am feeling much better now. I am loving these songs.....

P.S. Thank you to Myne and TLR for checking on me. God bless you both..

                                                       MaryMary ~ I 'm walking......

Hillsong: This is how we OVERCOME.....

I HATE PAIN

Hello bloggers,

I guess I have nothing  encouraging to write about today. But I have being  feeling sad lately and hurt. The pain I felt in the break-up is all coming back (you would have to read the three posts I did on it). I hate pain so much but I can't shake the feeling.

I am so praying that God will give me grace and strength to shake it off.

This song sums up how I feel right about now.

My thoughts on Life......

Hello World,

Waving with love.......

I just wanted to share some of my thoughts on life and understanding.

So here are some random FACTS I have come to know about life.


1)  I have come to embrace the notion of  experience is the only TEACHER  and development is the greatest TEXT BOOK (i made the last development part up. lol).
Experiences are supposed  to provide you with valuable lessons that will empower you in all you do in life. It is meant to be stepping stones.
With experiences comes development. Development shows the depth of lessons you have learnt and implemented and it all  reflects in your level of understanding and wisdom.
Maturity does not come with AGE..... IT COMES WITH SO MUCH MORE.
IF YOU THINK U ARE THERE... THINK AGAIN. COS U ARE PROBABLY NO WHERE NEAR.

2)Living for the moment is good, but it can be costly when you live for the moment and make the worse decisions during that time. You will be surprised how living for the moment becomes living through the NIGHTMARES. Just saying think think think BEFORE YOU ACT.

3)The World does not stop for you,  but you wait on the world. In essence, when you have children, get married, get a job, you die, or lose someone etc. The World does not STOP for you and feel your pain or joy.  Although, when things happen to us the world will show a fraction of attention but they will not wait on you and stop for you. When you celebrate they do it with you, when you mourn, they will mourn with you. But at the end of the day, everyone goes their separate ways and you will wait on the world i.e. time and you will stop for the world i..e reflection.  The last time you checked, a friend was over,  you jammed, played, caught up on life. But they are now off doing their own thing and now You are now alone, waiting and  facing the world.

4) Understanding is key to not bother with people that are not significant. When you understand some people are just WRONG for you. You will learn to never bother yourself with them even when they are in your face. You simply carry on LIVING.  What I mean is (when you understand some people are programmed in  a certain way, you should  deal with it and not bother, if you are bothered,  you are yet to understand that they will never get YOU).

5) LOVE is EASY to say and claim. What is not EASY is when actions begs to differ than WORDS. You say you love me yet you NEVER think good of me. You say you LOVE me yet you never try to believe in me. You say you LOVE me yet you are not prepared to go the extra mile. You say you LOVE me but you are afraid to trust me. You say you LOVE me but you cannot see your actions are hurting me. You say you LOVE me yet, you are not prepared to be HUMBLE. YOU SAY YOU LOVE ME YET YOU DO NOT KNOW HOW TO LOVE ME.

6)Everything comes and goes. LIFE, MONEY, HOUSES, CARS, JOBS, PARTNERS, CHILDREN, DEGREE, LOVE etc. Everything in life comes and goes and nothing is permanent. MAKE THE MOST OF EVERY Stage. You can never go BACK. Remember just like IT came, IT  will leave.

7)Honesty is the best policy. It is starts with YOU. If you cannot admit to yourself that you have issues and it must be dealt with. How can you be honest with another person or about another person.It is an ILLUSION if you think you can be honest with somebody without starting with yourself..............

8) Life can be mean sometimes but it does not give you the right to be mean to another person. Being mean creates a circle that never stops. So when someone is mean is to you, try to not be mean to someone else. The other person is not the problem.

9) Not everything in life has  answers. You have to learn to deal with that. It is painful but what is the point of wasting time looking for the answer you will NEVER find. Better to channel ones energy towards a productive course.

10) There is nothing such as bad people or good people. People either have a polluted/evil mindset that transcends to their character or they have clean/clear mindset. We all make mistakes and do wrong, so if I can do wrong what makes me good? I guess the answer to the question is nothing makes us good because we all do wrong no matter how insignificant. WRONG IS WRONG.

11) I am a nice person, I really am  (always having good motives, that what nice means to me). Sometimes, some  people take advantage of that but will I change. No, I cant, I tried but I cant be mean. WHY: I am nice. There is no two way about it you are either a nice person or not. So, when next you find out someone thinks you are fool for being nice. Its ok, you are probably a fool for being nice, but there is nothing wrong being a FOOL that actually knows they are genuinely  nice and they know people will take advantage of it. It just goes to show you are who you are and NEVER change for anybody. (Although, there is a difference between nice and stupid. lol.).

12)PEOPLE WILL ALWAYS BE PEOPLE. Just when you think you have met someone that is different, it turns out they are no better. Shame really, because you should known never to have expectations. Just have an open-mind. It could go either way.

Finally, everything in Life happens in Stages even when it all happens fast.. Watch and Learn. Life in Stages..

LOL.. am done now. Feel free to comment..

God is love, love yourself and others too..

Pls stay tuned for another enlightened story....(its is gonna be epic, ok let me not jinx it ohhh)..

Sense of Understanding.... (Last series). lol.

Hi People,

I apologise for not getting back earlier I had some drama in my life (but will probably blog about that sometime later).

Thank you to all that read my blog and writings I know am not the bestest writer but thanks for reading  and following me. I appreciate it.

I am intending on completing what I started i.e. the story I have been telling over the past two months or so.

Sense of Understanding is a summary on how I have coped with the whole situation and what I have learnt during  and after all  that has  happened between me and HIM.

Sadly, we did break it off and it happened in November  2010. Basically, He spoke with his mum and told his mum everything and his mum said he should to go with his Gut feeling and that what he did.
According to him he believes "us" going our separate ways was the will of God and he is at peace with it.

Boi, was it HARD.... it is one of the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with till date even the killing Malaria I had in 1997 does not top this pain. Well, we talked after that, but I was too angry to understand, I was to angry to see the point. I was angry because I felt he did not care, I was angry because I let my guards my down, I was angry because I genuinely was into him, I was angry because I thought he was the ONE. I was angry because I actually saw myself with him. I was angry, bitter, sick, everything. Christmas in my house was like nothing. I could not eat, or laugh. I never knew what it felt to be emotional sick or broken until that event.I must say I felt a part of me died. It was that horrible.

So, we sort of talked during December 2010, but it was not the same, I blamed him for being a coward and not fighting for us like he promised. But all in all, I knew it was over.
I blocked him off  FACEBOOK, SKYPE, MY PHONE, DELETED ALL THE BEAUTIFUL PICTURES even the nice video I made for him. I had to get rid of him. But it was not about the physical things.

It was my mental state too, I needed to purge him and boi it was not easy, He was a really cool guy. When I remember us I would break down. I cant describe the feeling I felt but I knew I was sick emotionally, I was not happy and I could not smile. I had to pray him out, in January 2011,  I remember saying God if you are real and you see me now, pls just take away this feeling (I called  it emotional cancer, it seemed to sap  away every form of joy, happiness and peace) from my spirit. The  core of my spirit was hurting and I could feel it, the inner part of me (it is really weird but imagine an onion that has many layers but deep in the circle there is a maggot or something nasty growing inside there, you cant see it but once you  begin to peel it layers, you will eventually see it). God answered and  I started to feel better, not healed but better as in my spirit felt better. I myself needed to heal and needed to let go and stop regretting or blaming anyone.  It was a gradual process,  I had to accept it was OVER as in over he is not coming back and  going on his knees to apologies(all the daydreams mehn). Well, I then had to re-programme my mind that it we were not meant to be (It was really long). I then had to forgive him (I had to forgive him because I need my healing and being upset at him was doing me no good).

Afterwards, I had to forgive myself (that took forever), I am my own worst/best critic and nobody can critic me more than me (I see alot of my flaws and I hate failing). So, Yes I felt like a failure, I felt like a failure because I should have known better. I should have shielded myself, I should being extra cautious, I should have guarded my heart with strong iron bars, I should known that it was too good to be true. I felt I should have been prepared  to deal with the situation in a matured way. I was wrong, ( I felt vulnerable, I felt like a child, everyday I had to learn to let go). It was just horrible but I learnt loads.

Gradually, I began to learn to let go with the help of God and I became strong. I began to understand that what does not kill you makes you stronger. I began to understand that experience is the only teacher, I began to understand humans are resilient and we go through tough times but we can bounce. I began to understand that life is full of surprises and that each learning experiences is building you up for another challenge ahead. I began to understand I was not the failure, he was not the failure, nobody is a failure. It is what it is. No explanation, yes there were  contriburuty factors such as maturity, sense of self, understanding etc. But whatever will happen, will happen  no matter what you do. I began to understand life in itself is complex and we try to understand it but we can only try. I began to understand that I am stronger than I thought and I would be a testimony from this.

My point is am still understanding alot of things, I am still understanding how to cope with certain things but I know everything is a learning process.

But I wont deny these questions:

Do I miss him? YES.
Do I think about him? For a while I did not, but lately I have been.
Do I want him to come back? To be honest Not sure..
Will I say YES if he comes back for me? I dont know...time will tell
Do I wish him well? YES.
Will I be happy if he gets with someone else? YES (why should I be mad or jealous).
Do you I still like Him? YES as a person.
What are my best memories? (i like the way he pretends to be a  child and acts like one of my Sunday school children (I am Sunday school teacher). I like it when I have to calm him down  when is upset or being cheeky,  I like it  when he  calls me by my  full name or when he pretends to be my DAD and tells me  off or when he tells jokes that are not funny but I laugh because he is so sweet or when he preaches about the bible and we pray together. I like it  when he apologies and he actually admits he was  wrong and I cherish the times  he  would actually tell me his going to eat with his family at the  dinner table (so sweet). I cherish the times he tries to speak in Nigerian accent or speak in yoruba (he is  rubbish). I cherish the openness and trust we had.  I miss us cooking together, when he would actually stay with me in the kitchen when I cook and help out, or when I taught him how to bake toffee cake.

I hated saying goodbye because I always cried and each time I do this, he would hold me in his arms, kiss away my tears and assure me that he will see me  soon and apparently my tears taste great ( lol.. weirdo)..  (I miss the times  he would  look  into my eyes and just smile) and I miss the nicknames, one of my favourite  pet name was  " fine fine jawline all mine"  and  pringles cos I like pringles. he was really cool.  One more thing I cherish the countless of times I  fed him rice and chicken and I meant spoon feeding him(Yuck face I know, but I like it and  he loves rice.....). I have beautiful memories of HIM. I really do and I am grateful for that.
Do I think life is unfair? Nope, life is a learning curve.
Do I think I will feel love for someone again? Possibly but am not ready now.
Will I ever be ready? Nope, but I know I will end up with a really awesome dude (winks).
Do I think love is a gift? YES.
What do I miss about US? The Friendship.  it was really cool... I could pour my heart like my innermost thoughts and not feel judged and he was honest and I am happy I got to see his  vulnerability (For a guy to show his  vulnerable side is rare,  I think).
Do I think he really cared about me? YES
Do I think he was confused? YES,  at the time he didn't know what he wanted.
Do I think he will learn from the situation? Most likely,  I can't tell but he does seem like someone that learns from mistakes.
Have I learnt anything from this experience? Yes, I am alot wiser, calmer, rational and simple. well I like to think so. I expect less from people now, in fact I do not have any expectations at all even though my subconscious mind will. I AM NOT.
Do I think God allowed this? Maybe he did or maybe not, I know I prayed about the whole thing before and after  but  I know God knows whats best for me.
Do I question  God judgments? Yes, but have learnt to deal with it and move ON.
Do I think God taught me through experience? Nope, I allowed myself to be taught through this experience by being humble through the grace of God.
Do I feel complete with God in my life? Yes and No. Yes because I allow myself to be completed with the grace of God and No because  God can only do what we want him to do. So if I allow myself to be completed by God then this is the case (ok, quite a complicated answer there, but in a nutshell I allow myself to be complete if I open my heart).
How am I now? I am in a better place, am happy, I am learning and developing and I can say have moved ON. Yes, I miss him every now and then but its whatever you learn to deal with what you cant have and what you have. Now I have me and my future so am dealing with my life.

Overall do I have any advice for anyone that is hurting or has been hurt before or about to be hurt. I can only say enjoy the experience and learn as much as you can. If you want to believe God will help you, you have to be ready to admit you need help and the help of God  will only happen with your cooperation but its hurts less when God grace is present or should I say you are able to heal thoroughly in all aspects. So, don't worry no matter what happens we are all suppose to learn one thing or two about life.

This is it my friends, I have nothing really deep to say other than I have learnt so much  and I have come along in understanding that  not everything in life has an answer so deal with what you have and MOVE ON.

I hope you are inspired (I tried). God bless you if you believe and if you do not (well .... errm I guess whatever you believe bless you).

God is love, love yourself and love on others......

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LjhCEhWiKXk  This bruno Mars song says it all.. change the her to  HIM and girl to BOY..... I felt like that... When I see your face, there is not a thing I will change, cos You are AMAZING just the way you. YOUR SMILE....

Sense of Maturity....... part of the series of Sense of Failure.

Hello Everyone,

I hope you are fantastic and things are going well and even better. If nothing is going well now, trust and believe it will work out for  your good(I join my faith with you)..

I am here to (hopefully complete the part of the series).

Please enjoy reading...

Note: the first part of the series you can access here http://lifeinstagesdoz.blogspot.com/2011/10/sense-of-failure.html.

This was it for me, I meant meeting the HIM.. Lets call d guy HIM... I met him through a friend and we got talking. Now before we started talking I sort of knew about him and his love for God, but through a friend because of Bible Study. Fast forward to  December 2011, I was going on skype for the first time and so was my friend. We decided to put on out on our fb status for friends to add us, so she put hers on  and "HIM" added her. We were chatting on skype when she mentioned  HIM added her and she was excited friends were adding her. Me on other hand, didnt seem to have many people adding me (sads face lol). So, I was like who is "HIM" and she was like the dude that helped with bible study etc... I recalled "HIM" and I was like (yes me and my mouth)  suggest "HIM" to me. She asked "HIM" and he was like am shy  and she told me and  I am like why is he shy... Anywhoo "HIM" added me on skype and we got talking (talk about being confident and forward, I am, TRUST me, I will take charge anyday. Am I learning to back down? YES but I am still learning)..

At first it was exchanging pleasantries and started asking about family etc. It was pretty cool, we got on well and the next day or so was supposed to be his DAD Bday. Nevertheless, the convo was really nice (am deep so when people go deep mehn am like so super excited).. I was super excited and wanted to talk again so we planned to meet up again, n again, n again n again n again on SKYPE of course(power of the internet heheh). Through all this in my head I was thinking chia mehn he fits pretty much everything ohh.. (He loves G.O.D, he has a relationship with him, he actually understands the BIBLE, He is family oriented, he is respectful, he is charming, he is cool, he is curious like me, he is caring, he is humble, he is sweet, he is FINEEEEEEE, He is tall (lol.... vain). On a serious note, he has good education, he is well-mannered, very articulate, lawyer by profession,  he is AMBITIOUS, health conscious, prayerful, he is young too (I can only do 2-3 years of age gap, so he fitted perfectly. Everything was tick, tick in my book, boi, but I was like that because I asked God for my HUSBAND to come at the time so YES, I was wearing the analysis HAT..). Meeting him in person was awesome too, his smile was so infectious... I loved his smile (I love  guys that have nice smiles and actually can smile and do smile and smile not just with people they are with but smile all through).

Feelings were getting deeper (ofcourse) and @ this point my friend was nagging me to find out what is going on and if he is taking to this to another level. If he is the One..and etc. I knew we spent quite alot of time together on phone, skype etc. I remember going to see my Pastor in January 2010 and telling him about this "HIM". He asked me if was a christian,if he had a job etc. No, he did not have a job so pastor what asked what  he was doing, "I said he is doing his masters, the job market is tough". Anyways, he gave me advice that he needs to have a job and maturity does not come with age, so in essence, if I feel ready. He didn't mention go and seek the Lord face, (but said, do not get over yourself, it is likely this dude might not be the ONE). He told me how he met his wife and said God did not tell me this is your wife (Even though God told his wife, he just wrote down the qualities of what he wanted in a wife and compared to her qualities and other potential in life at the time). Cut long story short.. In April 2010, we both decided to enter a relationship for real and take things slow. At this point, "HIM" was saying he is convicted am his wife...

We did and it was awesome.......... it was wonderful.. I have always wanted a relationship where it was not self centered around physical passion i.e. kissing, foul play, sex etc. I just wanted it about us just US...and our inner beauty and God too. Was it tough not to engage in physical (u know what I mean). Nope it was not for me (though I was very attracted him both physically, spiritually and intellectually. However, when you learn to subject your flesh into submission you just simply carry on with grace), But for him..was it "I would say sorta but he did say he renewed his mind and respected me and my values not to violate me or take advantage or  disrespect his role in my life (I commend him for that).

Rewind 2 half years before, I had to tell myself that there has to be a guy out here that is willing to wait till the declaration of Husband and Wife before we starts the main business (this is because everyone around including some of my christian sis and bros were sexually active in their relationships, but I didn't want that).  (why: I see life in an angle of fairness, I am not ready to play any role such as giving you my precious body not even under the word love. For you to come inside me and explore my beauty that is  me trusting you into my world and my life and believing am doing the right thing and giving you a gift that is special to me). I don't think any man deserves that gift until he is BOLD enough to make the right sacrifices in the right places. Does this mean he needs to earn it. No, it does not to earn anything. All HE NEEDS to know is and be diligent to is, he has a role to play in my life and should play it well and that means respecting my values. abeg, do not mess me up for another person, Besides,  he should already know what HE WANTS i.e. abstaining  from sexual immorality and should stick with it...

NOTE: you are your biggest fear and temptation, if you know why you do not want to do something, its most likely you will say NO or at least back off or if anything do things right next time when you mess up.

HIM had his reasons (Apart from dishonoring GOD)he wanted to do things differently and not focus on the physical.. Anyway I do not hold on to words, but his actions was speaking louder than words. No he did not even try stuff and as in talking about feeling comfortable.. I was comfortable around him all day (comfortable for me means, not thinking that he would try anything stupid and constantly watching his moves to react).

But, it was not long until the doubts came, and they poured hard into my spirit.. it started with he is not Yoruba so how will you cope.. ok so he is not from my tribe thats fine. I can deal with it. The others came too "what if he is not the One God is preparing for you". I am like but everything fits right like a glove or a jigsaw.
The doubts  did not stop, it just came one after the other, the more I combated the doubts the stronger they became.I just kept feeling that "I should break up with HIM". The feelings I had to fight,  asking if this was God or the Devil. I remember telling him and we talked, we prayed and I also  told my Pastor's wife (two other pastors with different opinions, most importantly I told God).

I was really praying for a sign but nothing was coming through or maybe it did and I just could not see it. All I knew was, I was not at peace. It was a real battle. I could not take it, I had to go on a break.
I felt it with in me to take a break and I suggested we went on 3 months communication break apart from texting, it was difficult ( as we were  both emotionally attached) but we  did go on  a break for a month or less thinking it was just the fact I was spending more and more time  with US and less time with God.
During the break,  I was at peace as in felt stronger etc, but we started talking again and again, we broke the break.. lol. well more like I had to talk to him about something important and ended up not going back to the break.

Until  the 4th of November 2010, we were fine, praying things through and just not rushing things i.e. marriage talks, children talks etc. However, this particular day  he was adamant he wanted a sign from God he needed a sign infact, he craved for sign from God to let him know am his WIFE... Ok, he had been saying this for a while like he needed a sign but this time around he was really adamant. Mainly because he is ibo and his parents are abit effy around Yoruba (I have met them, he introduced me to them during the YAM Festival as a friend, which I was cool with.  His father and I went to the same school, MAYFLOWER, so there was abit of convo)...He was nice to me and very friendly (he did mention his dad was nicer than his mum, considering they are only 3 boys, his mum is incredibly protective). He also thinks the fact am raised by a single mum is an issue, as he always wanted a lady with both parents, you get the drifts...

Back to November 2010, his parents happened to ask HIM more about me (thinking he met me at his Uni and I was one of the international students that came abroad to study, but he told them that am I from here and I live with my sis and mum and she is a single parent). Apparently, their reaction was not positive, so he was even more ADAMANT about getting a word..(When I say detest the concept of getting a word or receiving a word and I am being honest, cos it was that one thing that ruled over our lives and could be that very thing that would save us......

I have to continue next time..

Thanks for reading...

God is love, love on yourself and others too...

xXx.

Sense Of Failure

Hello People of the World,

My Blogville family and I hope each and everyone of you is great and all is well. I pray whatever is going not right for you at the moment will work out for your good. I also pray that whatever is going well right now will remain permanent even better each day. AMEN.

So, I have not blogged in a way while. Why: I just didn't know what to blog about really, it took a while and I am glad the Holy Spirit inspired me.

Yes, I am here to simply discuss certain aspects regarding the concept of failure or the idea of failing.

 According to Oxford dictionary: Failure means not being able to do something. It also said to FAIL   means trying to do something but be unable to do it or to become weak or useless. It also  means not being successful at something e.g. in an examination.

Lets take another definition: Dictionary.com says "an act or instance of failing  or proving unsuccessful; lack of success: His effort ended in failure. The campaign was a failure."(http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/failure).

Finally, my last definition is taken from The free Dictionary which states "the condition or fact of not achieving the desired end or ends"(http://www.thefreedictionary.com/failure).

To be honest, I am not here to expand on their definition or try to base my understanding of failure on some of the definitions provided. I have simply included them,  as a base of reference point and to provide  a general overview of what I intend to discuss. However, I guess I could agree with some of the definitions e.g.the condition or fact of not achieving the desired end or ends"(http://www.thefreedictionary.com/failure). (I will explain in detail why I agree with this definition later on).

Back to the purpose of writing this topic. I have aspects of what I consider as  sense of failure. Bearing in mind I do not think failure is a negative thing. In fact it is one the best reasons we humans have been able to come up with incredible ideas. This is because when we fail at something some of us try other methods and find that other alternatives are better and  produce incredible results than the first. Failure is what you make it and how you intending on using it.

I have few aspects to what I think contributes to the sense of failure.
a) The application of ideas and methods that failed for some but worked for others. E.g. learning how to drive and passing your test straight way will depend on how you have been taught and how you have applied the concepts. If for instance, you had a good driving lesson but failed your PRACTICAL TEST it could be that the method your driving instructor gave was not the right one for you or the method you applied was the wrong one and it failed  (This is a generic example).

b)The sense of assuming you are ready and well prepared for something but in fact you are not near ready. Notice the word ASSUME. I say this because preparation is something that most of us think we know and are prepared enough but in reality we are NO where near preparation. For instance, take a story of contestants that feel their are ready to live up the big dreams but they are knocked out at the first hurdle because they fail to prepare hard enough. Preparation does take time, however sometime some  go and come back and they realise that knock out or disappointment  brought out the best in them.

c) The external influences or factors that has contributed and affected or facilitated  the sense of failure. In most cases, we have no control over.

Lack of experience and knowledge and basic understanding. This is in fact MATURITY, sometimes we fail because we lack maturity and believe the option we are taking right now is the best.  Thus,  sometimes we fail to consider other factors.

I know there are other considerable factors that affects failure that I have not mentioned here. But, trust me to say these are my own typical underlying principles of sense of failure that occurred in my life. I believe they all can be applied differently to different aspects of our lives. Ultimately, some of the factors mentioned above  are what I have experienced in my life and I have learnt so much and grown.

I want to take you on a journey on my life, sounds weird lol. But, on a serious note,  I want share some aspects of my life with you (well maybe a particular aspect to be precise).

Rewind to when I was Sixteen,  couple of my friends were already dating, even doing the big stuff i.e. kissing, sex etc. (No longer a big deal in this age). But, it was back then I guess. Most of the female I knew back then  were mostly about boys but for some it was about boys but not  all about boys. I say not all because fashion, music, peer pressure were also in the picture but not much education though. So, here I am excited to start College and my friends are asking me "Do you have a Boyfriend" I am like ermmm Yes. Truth is, I don't have a boyfriend and I didnt want to say No because I did not want to be seen as not part of the big girls doing big things. To be honest, its a mental thing as in who cares if you do not have boyfriend and I wish I said No and stuck to my guns. And if they were to look at me funny or thought funny or said anything stupid , I  wish my response would have been am not dictated by society standard or trends,  boys do not define my life(that would have been epic an answer mehn.. ohh well I did not say that).

 Nevertheless, I am sure as at some point they knew I was talking gibberish because the so called Dude I called my boyfriend was a guy I did not like but sort of kissed and in my head we are in a relationship so to speak. Although, we went to the same college, I think it became apparent he was not interested and if at all he was, he wanted only one thing. I so thank my God I did not get rapped up in his world or anyone else world. Moving on, I carried on with the flow of being with friends and watching them link up with various dudes every now and then.  Prior to moving abroad, I spent my semi teenage years  in Nigeria despite the fact girls liked guys and they liked us, most of us would not dare to enter a relationship (we talking 12,13, 14 age-range). Some were bold enough to move to ladies  and some didn't have the balls and if they did, the ladies were strong to say NO and played  hard to get. Hence, the shift of my mentality abroad was quite a  struggle,  I had to get used to how people viewed life or applied knowledge. Having a dude at the time was a big deal (well in my era or during my time but  not a very long time away though lol).

 When I actually did get into a relationship I was not interested because I knew I was not ready and did not want to make a fool of myself.

Interestingly, there is an aspect or a character I love about me, I like to take calculated risks or should I say I like watching my back alot and making sure I know where something is heading before I put myself in it. Due to this character I am able to get out of situation faster before you say "No can do". I am able to see what the other person "cannot see" or "does not see" or "refuses see" or "sees but fails to acknowledge" (a lot is in it.lol). I am a firm believer of "know what you want before committing yourself". This is exactly why I had to avoid relationships I knew what I wanted was different from what he would want. There is no point fooling myself that it will all work out  in the end, because working it out does not guarantee me happiness or joy. I guess I could possibly fool myself and say it can work  out, obviously investing all my strength and finding myself living with loads of regrets later on. As  I did not want that for myself I back out either earlier or in the middle.

 Compared to my peers(at the time),  I was not relationship driven, I was so much more i.e. commitment, life-time goals, maturity, readiness, willingness etc. All these and more is what I was looking for. At 19, I already made a decision with God not to be involved with anyone apart from the bone of my bone. So, I began praying, praying that he should have great characters and God should bless him, uplift him etc. In fact, this is an example of my prayer line " Lord please, he has to be humble, if he is not, please make him humble".  I also knew if I wanted an humble Husband I needed to be humble myself. Hence, I began to learn how to be humble, accepting wrong doings, apologizing whether in the wrong or not, not keeping malice etc (through the help of the Holy Spirit). I also knew I wanted someone that was on passion for God and God was the center of their world (Not religious though and obsessive). I know am in love with God (its hard to explain but I will try, you see if you open your heart just a fraction, REALLY GO DEEP. YOU WILL SEE HOW AMAZING GOD is).

Yes, he had to be a good cook, CONFIDENT, someone that was not materialistic (Yes, you can own assets, properties  and many things and not be materialistic or conscious about material things). I knew I had a lot to live up to,  I was never one for he has to have a car, buy a house or  ready made. I am not bothered. WHY: Cars will come, houses will come,  money will come so, my focus was the foundation.

As long as the foundation is right not just Godly but he is focused am focused, he is down for us as in both of us and our future then we will make it HAPPEN. I know this for a FACT. So, yes I was bigging  building up my prayer bank. The interesting thing was, I wanted to get married young and knew that from a relatively  young age. I wanted to get married at 24, and these were  my rationale behind it.
 First of all, I wanted to have the time to build my marriage and know what is like. b) I wanted to be part of his life every step of the way and look back to see how we started and how far we have come. c) I knew I had so much in me to give and so much to receive in return and seeing that I am young, my energy level is rocket high so am able to invests all the hard work. d) I am incredibly AMBITIOUS and  having our children early on will help us both to pursue  and follow our dreams head on. e) I intend on keeping myself for hubby and waiting forever cant be an easy task not by my power that is( I rely only on God ohhh). f)I wanted to have a young family. h)I wanted the struggles of making it as a couple to be combated  earlier  in the marriage. etc. Yes, these were  my ideologys' and I raised them all to KING and yes I told him to bring the main MAN i.e. HUBBY by the time am 21 or turn 21.

In December 2009, I met HIM or so I thought.

I will continue in the next series. Stay TUNED...

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